On the way home I started thinking about my own experiment with diapers earlier that day. The feeling of lying there in bed and just letting go went beyond description. It was something I was pretty sure I wanted to experience again. Too bad I had to give the Goodnites to Jane.
‘You know…’ I reasoned with myself ‘just because I didn’t wet the bed again last night doesn’t mean it won’t happen again… Maybe I should pick up something just in case.”
I pulled my car into the parking lot of the same drug store that I had bought Jane’s Goodnites at just a couple days ago. This time my trepidation was somewhat mixed with feelings of excitement.
Remembering that the Goodnites didn’t fit me very well I figured I should find something bigger. I thought about the ‘real’ diapers Jane had been made to wear.
Immediately I knew that I wanted to try them.
After making my way to the incontinence isle I searched through the various offerings.
I settled on a pack of over-night, extra absorbent medium briefs and I made my way to the front.
Secretly thanking the inventor of the self check-out I quickly made my purchase and left the store.
Fortunately, when I arrived home I found the house to be empty. I carried the pack of diapers upstairs and hid them in my closet. Resisting the urge to open the package and put one on, I decided instead to wait until bed time.
I hurried through dinner making idle conversation with my about school and such. After putting my plate in the sink I announced that I was tired and turning in early.
Going up to my room I locked the door. Excited and somewhat nervous I retrieved the package from my closet.
Pulling one ‘brief’ from the package I spread it out on my bed.
Taping a diaper on myself proved to be quite a bit more difficult than putting the one on Jane the previous day. After readjusting the tapes several times I managed to get it on snugly.
I pulled a pair of sweats on over top and climbed in bed. Just as I was getting comfortable my phone rang.
“Hello?” I answered
“Peter…” Jane’s voice came over the line in a whisper “There’s a Goodnite missing from the pack you gave me. What happened to it?”
“Crap! Now what do I do?” I thought to myself.
“Peter?” Jane whispered a bit louder “Are you there? I really need that Goodnite! Mom came up and asked for the second pack this evening and the first thing she did was count them! Where could it be?”
“I uhmm.. I mean.. Uhmm… It uhmm.. It must have fallen out in the back of my car!” I immediately winced at the lie I had just told my best friend.
“Well I hope so, I told Mom it must be under my bed or something. I got lucky this time cause Mom’s got an early meeting tomorrow. She just said I’d better find it or else and went off to bed. I really don’t want to know what or else means Peter. PLEASE make sure you find it!” Jane pleaded “She probably won’t ask in the morning since she’s leaving early but I know she’ll be expecting me to have it when she gets home!”
“Don’t worry, I’ll have it in the morning” I assured her. How exactly I was going to manage that I had no idea!
“Thanks Peter, you’re a really good friend. You know sometimes I think that maybe we should… I mean that I… I mean you.. I mean your great Peter! You’re a great friend, good night!” Jane sounded obviously flustered.
“Good night” I answered back as I hung up the phone.
‘What was that all about?’ I wondered.
But it didn’t really matter. Whatever Jane trying to say, whatever she was about to confess, only one thing was on my mind. I had just lied to my best friend. I felt horrible!
The diaper I was so excited about trying didn’t matter anymore. I laid in bed thinking about what to do next. I guess in the morning I would return the store, buy ANOTHER pack of Goodnites and take one out of that pack to give to Jane. At least that will keep her out of trouble, I told myself.
Still I felt bad. Jane had been so open and honest with me about her bedwetting, her diapers, everything. But I just couldn’t tell her the reason the Goodnite was missing was that I had worn it. Still, if she knew I had had an accident maybe she wouldn’t feel so bad about her own. And I knew she wouldn’t think any less of me. Being completely honest though I hadn’t just worn that Goodnite because I was afraid of another accident. And I certainly had NOT wet it on accident. I definitely couldn’t tell Jane THAT part! I tossed and turned the rest of the night trying to decide what to do. I had barely closed my eyes when I was jarred awake by my alarm clock.
I sat up in bed and shut off my alarm. It took me a minute to remember what I was wearing. I pulled back the covers. The diaper was completely dry. I was definitely not becoming a bed wetter again. However this morning I didn’t feel like using my diaper. I just tore it off, balled it up, and shoved it into the bottom of my waste basket. I stepped into the shower still dwelling on the lie I had told Jane the night before. Jane trusted me so much and I hadn’t trusted her at all. As I finished up my shower I became resolved at what I had to do. I would tell Jane the truth. Well, most of it anyway. I would tell her about my accident and that I had tried one of the Goodnites. I would leave out the details of the dream that had caused the accident and any ulterior reasons I had for wearing one the next night.
I got dressed and hid the dry balled up diaper in the bottom of my book bag. As I got in the car and pulled out of my driveway another realization hit me. I could be honest with Jane but that still didn’t solve the problem with her mother. Her mom was still expecting Jane to produce the Goodnite that afternoon. If Jane’s mom found out I was the reason it was missing then she would know I had been involved. Then it would be just a few short dots for her connect that I had been at the house with Jane alone. That wouldn’t end well for either one of us! There was only one thing to do, I turned my car in the direction of the drug store.
As I walked through the door of the store I realized if any employees had paid attention to my purchases over the past few days they probably thought we had a lot of bedwetters at my house! Still, being that this was a drug store I doubt my purchase was all that unusual, they probably hadn’t even noticed. When I got to the diaper aisle it became apparent exactly how ‘not unusual’ my purchase really was! The shelf for girl’s L-XL Goodnites was empty! Apparently there were a lot more people out there wetting their beds than I realized! My mind wandered for a moment wondering if any of the other girls at my school had purchased the other packs. Still, this was a problem, I was supposed to be in school in 15 minutes and I had no Goodnite to give to Jane! I’d just have to figure something out later, getting detention for being late would certainly not improve the situation.
I got to school, parked the car and enterd the building with only a few minutes to spare. Jane was waiting by my locker.
“Oh thank goodness Peter” Jane exclaimed “I was beginning to think you weren’t coming. If you were absent today I don’t know what I would have done! Please tell me you have the uhmm… thing!”
“It’ll be fine” I said trying to avoid lying again.
“You did find it…” Jane started to look worried.
“We’ll talk at lunch” I replied “We got to get to class”
“Peter….” Jane started, but was cut off by the bell.
We both hurried off to our first class. I wasn’t looking forward to lunch today.
I tried to avoid talking with Jane until lunch time. I ducked into the bathroom between classes and said I had to go back to my locker for something I forgot. I hoped Jane didn’t think was mad at her.
When lunch finally rolled around I guided Jane over to a table in the far corner of the cafeteria.
“All right Peter, what’s going on?” Jane sounded perturbed “Your acting pretty weird. Did you find the freakin’ diaper or what?”
“I didn’t find it” I started, Jane’s expression went from annoyed to worried.
“I didn’t find it, because I couldn’t” I continued.
“What do you mean you couldn’t?” Jane was sounding panicked again “You’ve got to find it Peter, you got to look again! Do you KNOW what’s going to happen to me if I don’t have it when Mom gets home this afternoon? She said that I would…”
“Look there’s no point in looking again” I said cutting her off “It’s not there!”
“What do you mean it’s not there?” Jane replied “It’s got to be there it’s not like you used it or something!”
“Well actually…”
Jane’s eyes got wide “Peter! You mean you USED it? Why?!?”
“Just listen!” I replied, “This hard for me to say, but I had an uhmm.. an accident the other night”
“What do you mean an ‘accident’” Jane asked “is this that ‘boy thing’?”
“No, like a REAL accident” I answered (she of all people should have known what I meant!)
“Look” I explained “I had this dream and I woke and I had peed in my bed! I’m sorry I should have told you. I mean you told me about all your accidents”
“Well maybe not all of them” Jane said blushing slightly “I’ve had those kinds of dreams too. Was it the one where you think your sitting on the toilet only to wake up and find there was never a toilet at all, just your mattress?”
“Yeah, that’s the one!” I said deciding that was a better option than telling her my REAL dream.
“But you’ve told me about that, that you used to, you know… wet…” I reminded Jane.
“No, I told you I used to wet the bed, like back when we were freshmen” Jane was blushing furiously now “I’ve had ‘those’ kind of dreams more recently, like this past summer”
“Oh, okay” I said trying to sound like it wasn’t a big deal.
“Anyway, I had several of these ‘incidents’ last summer” Jane went on “and that’s why my mom had the Goodnites still”
“And why you have a plastic sheet on your bed” I said without thinking.
“How do you know about that?” Jane looked mortified.
“Sorry I didn’t mean to upset you” I assured her “When I went up to get your.. thing.. the other day I noticed. Really, it’s no big deal! I mean with everything else you’ve told me a plastic sheet is no big thing!”
“I know” Jane admitted “It’s just that… Well I haven’t needed it for a while, well a few months at least, Mom just hasn’t taken it off my bed yet.”
“It’s fine!’ I repeated “I mean I wish I had one on my bed the other night! My mattress was completely soaked!”
“So that’s why you wore one of my…” Jane said putting it all together.
“Yes” I replied “I didn’t want to take a chance on ruining the other side of my mattress!”
“But their girl’s Goodnites” Jane noted, “You mean you wore..”
“It was better than the alternative” I stated flatly
“Still I would have liked to have seen that!” she shot back.
“That is NOT going to happen!” I replied emphatically.
“But you’ve seen me in mine” Jane gave me a fake pout.
“Still….” I said “Not going to happen!”
“We’ll see about that” Jane responded.
I wasn’t sure I liked that look in here eye.