Julie and Mrs. Oakman followed soon after and Julie heard the water start in the shower for Becky. She followed Mrs. Oakman into her room and headed over to the same spot where she had been changed last night. Mrs. Oakman soon showed up with a diaper in hand. She dropped the diaper on the floor next to Julie and turned around and headed back into her own bathroom, returning a few seconds later with some wipes and baby powder. Julie had already taken her PJ pants off by that time.
“Thanks hon.” Mrs. Oakman said “Go ahead and just lie down and I’ll take care of the rest.”
As Julie put her head on the floor it occurred to her how much had changed in so little time. Just days ago she had been over here and neither Becky nor Mrs. Oakman had had a clue she was wearing a diaper. Now, Becky knew everything. Mrs. Oakman was changing her regularly. And they all talked about her diapers like it was perfectly normal.
Julie hadn’t honestly ever thought about what it would be like to have other people know about her wearing diapers. She had spent a lot of time wondering what it would be like to wear them, but it hadn’t crossed her mind how other people might react to the situation. When she was first put back in diapers though, the thought of somebody finding out had sent a shiver down her spine and scared her far more than any horror movie could. She recalled the near panic attack she had just days ago before she ended up pooping her pants at school. She had even lied to Becky about things to cover it up.
Now things were out in the open. And it was surprising how well it was all working out. Becky seemed genuinely touched when she told her everything. Mrs. Oakman talked about changing her diapers like it was no big deal. In fact, everyone seemed to be just fine with the whole thing. And while she knew she hadn’t really thought about it before, Julie was nevertheless surprising to see how something like this was so quickly accepted by people. And more importantly, the emotional weight, the guilt and, yes, the shame, she had carried for the past few days was joyfully gone.
‘Let’s not get too carried away here’ she told herself. ‘I mean, it’s one thing to have the Oakmans find out and stuff. Other people who don’t know me so well might be different though.’ Julie thought to herself.
‘Well, if you keep this up for too much longer, other people are going to find out you know?’ another voice in Julie’s head told her. ‘You can’t hide it forever.’
Julie was conflicted. She knew she was right…. people would eventually find out. But then again, she could probably keep it a secret long enough. ‘I won’t be wearing diapers forever or anything, and I’m sure most folks will never know.’ That made enough sense for Julie to stop thinking about it.
Julie realized that Mrs. Oakman had finished, so she sat up. She was about to get up and leave, but she noticed Mrs. Oakman looking at her. That look said she wanted to talk.
“What’s up Mrs. Oakamn?”
Mrs. Oakman smiled at Julie. “Oh, I was just thinking about how well you are dealing with all this.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean about you wearing diapers again. I’m just really impressed with how you are handling it. I would think that something like this would be really hard for a girl your age. But the other day, at your house when I changed you, you acted like it was no big deal. And the way you and Becky were talking last night, it was like it was perfectly normal for you to be in diapers. I just think it’s so cool that you two are able to treat something like this so maturely. It shows you two are really grown up.”
Julie chuckled a bit when she heard that last line.
“What?” Mrs. Oakman asked with a smile and a bit of a giggle herself.
“Oh, I was just thinking that it’s kind of funny to hear you talk about being mature and grown up, when you are talking about me going back to wearing diapers again like a baby.”
“Ha, well, yeah I see what you mean. But I do mean it. And you are no baby, diapers or not. You girls are just really cool about the whole thing. I’m kind of proud of you two. I’m not sure I would have been able to handle it so well when I was your age. I just can’t imagine what it must be like to, you know, need to wear diapers.”
Julie felt a bit off here, as she wasn’t 100% sure what Mrs. Oakman knew about the reason why she was back in diapers. And while she was OK with Becky knowing the whole story, she wasn’t really interested in going into all the details with Mrs. Oakman. But on the other hand, she felt like she needed to say something. She didn’t want to lie though, so she decided to tell her the truth, but maybe not the whole truth.
“Yea, when I knew I was going to start wearing diapers I was nervous for sure. And while I had thought about it a lot, I guess I never really thought much about what it would really be like. You know, like I didn’t even think about how I would need to get changed at school, or how I would tell Becky or anything. It kind of happened pretty quickly.”
“Yea, I bet. How long has it been now?”
While Mrs. Oakman was asking her question, Becky walked into the room. She had finished her shower and gotten dressed. Becky saw that Julie was in a new diaper and that they were talking, so she came in and joined them.
“Um, like a week I guess?”
“That isn’t a lot of time. And that’s why I was saying you sure seem to have gotten used to it quickly.”
“Well, to be honest it really isn’t that bad. I mean, I didn’t really know what to expect, so it’s hard to say if it’s like better or worse than I thought it would be. But I guess I don’t really mind having to wear diapers. Sometimes it’s actually kind of convenient.”
As soon as she said it, Julie realized that she had just voiced something that she hadn’t really ever said out loud before. Sure, she had thought about it a lot, but she had never come out and said she was happy to be in diapers again.
Mrs. Oakman smiled again, “Well, like I said, I think it’s just great that you have such a positive attitude about the whole thing. And you two hon” she turned to Becky “I think it’s wonderful that you are so supportive of your friend.”
