The sheer thought of having someone to love and care for brought me an insurmountable amount of joy. But who? In this life, decent friends are rarity in their own right. Most of your supposed “friends” usually would end up screwing you over to save their own skin, or trick you into being more than generous to them, especially if you have the ability to. I couldn’t ever consider these types of friends to really be close to me.
My answer to this impressively annoying question came to me one day while on a serene walk around a park with an ex-girlfriend. (One of the few who actually ended the relationship on a peaceful note, so we still kept contact with one-another.) I saw a family of four; two joyous parents playing with their two children nearby. The father playfully chased his two energetic toddlers around while the mother sat close and watched, laughing right along with them. A child! It seemed so obvious now that the answer was right in front of me. From that day forward, I began to do all that I could to get a hold of adoption information, and under complete secrecy.