When I woke up I didn’t know what time it was or anything. I lay there for about 20 minutes just listening to what Angela and Teresa had to say. I didn’t really feel like talking, and I didn’t want Angela to know that I was up. I found myself thinking about my dad. For the rest of the ride I silently cried to myself. Thinking of all the things that me and my dad used to do together, I wanted him at my graduation, I wanted him to be a grandfather. Everything was just so surreal. I’m laying in the backseat of a car that isn’t my dads, I’m wearing a diaper, and I am with my teacher. It was so confusing. I just want to die, that way I can be with my dad again. I know it is bad to think about that, because I do have it good right now, I am with a loving family, opposed to in an orphage, but, I wanted my daddy. I cried until I had no tears left. I hurt all over, especially my heart.
I felt the car pull to a stop and I pretended to be asleep again. Angela picked me up and carried me into a building. I opened my eyes just a little bit and saw that we were at the Hilton. Teresa had all the bags since Angela’s arms were in use. Oh crap! I realized that I was in a wet diaper [I peed in it some time in the car] and there was people around! I know that the way I was being carried that people could tell. My pink skort just didn’t cut it. I figured that it would cover the diaper better than pants, but when it is being lifted up by someone’s arms it doesn’t really cover anything. I was so mortified I didn’t know what to do! I could get down and walk so noone would see the diaper anymore, but the people who already saw it would know, and I would be crinkly. Or I could just stay in Angela’s arms and I wouldn’t be so embarrased. We got up to the check-in counter, and they had to verify our information. Teresa was angry because they overbooked, and now we couldn’t stay on the cooperate floor with Adam and Bill. Angela said that she was taking me to the bathroom, she grabbed my diaperbag and headed to the handi-cap stall.
When we got in there she lay me down on the ground. She pulled my bottoms down and undid the diaper. I was blushing, hopefully she didn’t notice. She wiped and powdered me, and put on a new diaper. Ugh, I didn’t want to wear another one, I wanted a goodnite! I couldn’t say anything because I was pretending to be asleep, so it kinda sucked.
Angela set me on the counter leaning against her as she washed her hands, and then took me out to the counter again. I learned that we had a discount because they made a mistake, but we were staying on the 7th floor, instead of the 2nd.
We got into the elevator and into our room. I was put onto the bed and tucked in. I was hungry. I lay there for a bit just to make it like I really was sleeping then I sat up.
“Hey sunshine” Angela said to me.
“Have a good sleep hunny?” Is what I heard from Teresa.
“Yeah I did, I was tired, but now I am hungry.”
“No worries” Angela said, “We were just about to wake you up, we are leaving for dinner in 10 minutes, as soon as the boys get here.”
“Oh okay. Where are we going?”
“To a little resturant called the Grape Vine.” Teresa anwsered me.
Me and my dad used to go to the Grape Vine all the time. Tears welled up in my eyes, I put my face into the pillow to hide my red, wet eyes.
“Awwe baby, what’s wrong?” Angela asked me.
“Nothing”
“Sweety just tell me, c’mon I am here for you.”