I scream, Nana! What is so funny? I am so embarrassed! I actually wet myself.
I hear a drawer open and close. Nana walks out with a pair of training panties. They have little white lambs on them. She is still giggling and trying to keep a straight face.
She says softly and reassuringly, It’s ok for a little girl to wet her panties once in a while, baby.
What are you laughing at me for, Nana? I am really mad at you!
Nana smiles and replies softly, Baby, Im not laughing at you, sweetheart. Its just … one of those … other interests … just reached out and touched you. Thats all.
She pulls down my damp panties and wipes me gently with a wipey.
I am still having problems with the feelings that meeting this man has caused.
She holds out the training panties and says, Step in, baby.
I step in the,m and she gently pulls them up and pats me softly on my bottom. I am still in turmoil over meeting Larry. I am truly embarrassed.
I didnt know that Larry was really taken with me too. Mommy and daddy already approved. This is why daddy brought him to the nursery. Just mommy and daddy accidentally on purpose neglected to tell Larry or me.
I couldn’t believe it. I had a fantasy of me being Larry’s girlfriend and he dating me and me making mad passionate love to him and I turn from the fantasy. Wow !! I am in trouble here! I feel warm and wet, tingly feelings inside me. Nana is looking at me with a grand smile on her face. I am so embarrassed. My face and ears feel like they are on fire.
I shriek with pent-up anxiety as I shake my fists.
Nana comes to me and hugs me tenderly. She walks me over to the rocking chair and sits, picks me into her lap, and has me lie across her breast. She rubs her hand gently across my head. She says, Baby, dont be upset. She starts to rock slowly and continues, its what we were talking about. You will know when the time is right. Others know too. It comes when it comes.
I knew I had finally met the most beautiful man I had ever seen. I had wanted to meet him for a long time and never had the chance. I remember him and had seen him at various times when momma or daddy would take me to the mall or the park. I had never spoken to him. The opportunity never arose. We were in rather close proximity at most times and I did notice how beautiful he was. But when daddy actually introduced me. His touch … his lovely voice … Ummmmmm! Goose bumps sprout all over my skin.
I remember the look in daddy’s face … he chose that moment to do it too. I giggle.
Nana kisses me softly on the top of my head as she continues to rock me.
I wonder what it would be like. To actually go on a date with him. I wonder if he would be willing to take someone like me on a real date.
I ask, Nana … do you think he would actually take me on a date?
Nana giggles sweetly and replies, Miki, I think he would be more than honored to take you to any place you asked him.
I shrug and respond, Suppose I dont want to ask Him?
She holds me and kisses me again and says, Oh, I see, you want him to ask you. Is that it? She starts rocking slowly again. Then continues, It … could happen I suppose. But wouldn’t you think it would be more direct if you made the suggestion?
I replied wistfully, I don’t know, Nana. Just seems right, he says.
Nana smiles sweetly as she caresses my head,d then says, It does seem the proper thing. I agree.
I am thinking about my fantasy. I feel so strange deep inside. I do have a reference point that other girls at this time of their life don’t have. I still remember being John, too. I remember having great joy. I also remember being deeply in love. I know that woman is long dead by now. I know if I do go on a date with Larry, I will belong to him. I shudder with sweet little chills.