Mom smiled and cooed to me again and said lovingly, Just relax and be baby. It will help you to recover from the accident. She said. I cant even imagine what you are going through, sweet heart. It must be bad to be two people at the same time. I know you know you can trust me. You can absolutely trust your daddy too. Listen to us and let go of that other, the one your daddy calls John. You are not him. That is part of the accident and you will recover if you just let go. Come back and be my Baby Miki. She is loved very much by a whole lot of people.
The milk was warm, very rich, tasted very good, and it definitely satisfies the hunger in my tummy. I was immediately content. Things all blurred into a large happy euphoric loving contentment.
I dont know when I fell asleep, but when I awoke, I was in my crib and needed a diaper change. I couldnt believe I had peed in my diaper. I tried to take it off … I didnt know how, I needed mommy. I remembered what she said about letting go … I let go of the other memories and was Baby Amy. I held the cribs rail as I stood up. I was shaky on my feet. I saw myself in the mirror. I was truly an adorable baby girl. I looked like an Angel.
I could feel myself making a stinky in my diaper and couldnt help but push it out.
It made a big impression on me that I was unable to stop myself. I could feel it in my diaper as it grew until I pushed once more and was finished. I had just made a messy in my diaper. There was absolutely nothing I could do to prevent it. I am an unpotty trained baby.
I called, Mommy, Miki go potty. I was shocked at how my voice sounded. Adorably sweet, I sound like that? Let go, you are Baby Amy.
Mom came in the room and picked me up and checked my diaper. She kissed me and said, Miki you are such a good baby going potty in your diaper. She gave me a big hug and a real tender kiss and lots of encouragement to be baby as she laid me on the changing table. She said, I thought I would never get to do this again. I am so glad they were able to bring you back. She kisses me.
She took off my wet messy diaper and washed me. She put jell lovingly around my privacy and bottom, Powdered and re-diapered me. She took off my nighty top and put me in a cute romper with a plastic lining and three rows of ruffles on my bottom and snapped it between my legs. She put matching booties on my feet … I giggle happily. She sat in the big rocker and I suddenly had her breast in my mouth. It felt so good and made me feel very safe and content. The milk filled my tummy. The memories of John were gone.
When I had finished breakfast, she took me into the den where many people were. There were Princes, administrators, Kings, Senators, Arbiters of Imperial Law all carrying on about some huge important thing. I felt very self conscious about being dressed as a baby. Everyone seemed to accept that I was a baby girl and treated me accordingly with much love, encouragement, and acceptance. Everyone knew me, I didnt know any of them.
I began a new life … I was baby.