I felt it hit me. I came totally awake. It coursed through me like a hurricane filled with electrical fire. It grabbed my soul and suddenly there was a total separation of my consciousness from my body.
I was aware of my body … it was alone and in the most horrible hell spawned torment imaginable because of the injuries to it … it was only a moment from death ¦ but I felt nothing except the coursing energy that held me and pulled me from my destroyed body. I saw it perish in the most horrible agony, totally empty and void.
I saw my destroyed self on the table, dead. I could see myself in this other location too, I was completely intact here. I was pulled helplessly into a blue-white field of energy. It spread through me. I actually felt something being erased from me. Wasnt sure what. On the other side of this energy field, I was no longer in a human form, but existed as a bright white sphere of intense energy. I had been pulled into a clear sphere surrounded by this intense energy field. I could actually see what was going on in the room below, but I couldnt get out of the sphere. The wall of energy prevented it.
I saw them unhook all the wires from my dead body, place it in a body bag and zip it closed. This caused me some anxiety to say the least. I knew I was dead, but still somehow alive. Next, they brought the girl to the table and placed her nude body on it. They attached the electrodes in the same fashion I had been wired and placed the golden ring on her head.
She is an extremely beautiful eighteen year old. She had a choke collar around her neck that had the most beautiful blue gemstone I had ever seen. She was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen as well. Shoulder length silky white blond hair and the face of an absolute angel.
I see one of the people push a button on a panel. I am grabbed by the irresistible hurricane filled with electrical fire force again. My thoughts are totally disrupted as I am placed in the girls body. I dont fit … some kind of adjustment. Im back … this time I fit perfectly.
My body was very glad to have me back. I didnt understand, this isnt my body … it is my body and my soul rejoiced that I had returned to it again. The body accepted me, my soul accepted my body, my body caressed me, became me, and I became her. The way I had entered this body suddenly vanished with the energy wave and I was now an eighteen year old little girl and a fifty one year old man all at the same time with extremely intense dual conflicting tormenting memories all fighting for control. I was merged. No foundation of who I was. No basis or concept of reality.
Neuro Control Diagnostic … control vector loss … reestablish Pet program control
My soul is grabbed by an all consuming merciless controlling force … it is demanding … it is irresistible … it takes absolute control … I loose my free will. I scream a blood curdling scream of intense agony as the neuro pet collar reestablished absolute pitiless control over me. Just as quickly, I become silent as waves and waves of really strange and intense emotions, thoughts, feelings, desires, needs, hopes, and an over powering need to please engulf me. I open my eyes … Total disoriented torment … I scream!
I am totally confused. We are totally insane. I have massive things being forced into my existence … I am totally tormented. I am Amy Michelle Anton. I am John Notsruht Tressu. We are both and neither. Something has taken control of our soul. We are in an extreme state of total tormented confusion. I have thoughts, emotions, feelings, things becoming me that arent me. Things that are us becoming things that arent me. I am me, but I am someone else too. I am no one, we are one, all at the same time, at absolute war with each other. I sit up on the table. We are completely nude and freezing cold. We have wires all over us and a neurolizing halo on my head ¦ how do I know what this ring thing is? Emotions Ive never had before start running through me … familiar … alien … total spiritual conflict. I start crying hysterically.
I cant help it; we are literally an eighteen year old girl and a fifty one year old man together as one person in torment, at war. We have dual personality … I have single personality … I scream!
A woman rushes to me ¦ she is a total stranger ¦ I know her very well ¦ I have never met her before ¦ I have known her all my life ¦ she is my mother Princess Lady Beth … I love her intensely ¦ our mind is tearing me apart … she is a total stranger ¦ who is this other person in here with me … refusals … denials … war … We are scared out of our mind ¦ I scream in tormented fear!