I wasn’t able to tell her no. Now that I was a baby again, I had to have someone take care of me. I was just glad she was there when I needed her. I felt ashamed that I had treated her so shabbily.
She put me in a playpen in the middle of the floor while she cleaned and vacuumed the rug. I wondered why I hadn’t had the courage before to marry her. Pauline was so….competent, so strong, so nurturing. As I watched her, I realized just how impressive she really was. She made me feel so protected and cared for. I was in awe of her, She wasn’t a professional colleague or even a sexual object anymore, but a Goddess! She was above my petty likes and dislikes.