Julie didn’t know what to say. She had to admit, at least when it came to wetting, it had been a while since she had even tried to hold it. And although she usually realized she was wetting, she also had to admit that recently it hadn’t been until she was wetting her diaper that she even knew she had to go. And then there were the other times when she just couldn’t hold it. ‘I may not even be at step 1 of potty training’ Julie realized with mild shock. ‘And sometimes I apparently don’t even know that I had ever wet myself, like at night. And like right now!’
“Wow mom, I mean the more I think about it the more I am kind of thinking you might be right.” Julie said with a growing sense of alarm. Her stomach was quickly tightening up.
Julie suddenly thought about what it would be like to not be wearing a diaper and have an accident at school. She remembered what Sam from D Club had said about how hard re-potty training had been. She said that she had worn diapers for months even though she didn’t need them. Suddenly the thought of not wearing a diaper was making Julie scared. Visions of wet pants at school with people pointing and laughing came rushing into her mind.
“I just, wow, I just never thought of it. You really think I would have an accident?” The sound of her voice now carried a tone of disbelief, and a noticeable amount of fear.
Sally smiled a little bit, shook her head slightly and then held up her hands palms outwards as if to say slow down. “OK, look honey, let’s not start freaking out here. I guess this is a new idea for you, but it really isn’t new to me. And it’s also not a big deal as far as I am concerned. It’s not like anything is going to change. I mean, you’ve been wearing diapers for a while now.”
“Well, yea, that’s true.” Julie said.
Sally patted the top of the changing table, “Come on, hop up here and let’s get you changed.” Julie hopped up. “I would be a lot more concerned here if you hated wearing diapers or something. But I don’t think that’s the case is it? As far as I can tell you seem to have gotten used to it at this point. Am I right? I mean you just joined a club of diaper wearers and you almost sounded a little bit sad back there when you were talking about being out of diapers and stuff.”
“Well, yea I kind of was actually. It was really weird to think about not wearing a diaper and having to worry about going to the bathroom and stuff.”
“Well, no need to worry about that because I have no plans to let you go around without a diaper on. For your information, I already bought another case of diapers for you. It’s in your closet; I just hadn’t bothered restocking the shelf here.”
“Really?”
“Yes really. That is why I was so taken aback by you talking about not wearing a diaper. I mean, I accepted the idea of you not being potty trained a while ago and have been going with it ever since. I thought for a second that maybe I had been totally wrong about things and that you were looking forward to wearing panties again. I felt really bad for a second there when I thought I was going to have to tell you that I already had bought more diapers for you.”