So we both found the items that I wanted to wear when I told the lady what I liked and choose the ones that I was drawn too in my mind. I was letting my inner womanly soul tell me what to wear on the outside, slowly releasing her piece by piece like a jigsaw puzzle. For years she was inside me in my mind, body and soul. What I saw in the mirror at home or getting out of a shower after my running session was not the person that was deep inside. I knew all my life that I should have been born a girl, even my father wanted a girl for his first born, but he got me instead and never really loved me because of it. I always felt the unwanted a reject but my dear mom loved me for me, which was a god send.