The only reason I wasn’t dead, because my other half, John, was brave enough to save me and my daddy before the ship we were on exploded.
The armada commander had left all totally with the largest threat the Universe had known.
It told of the many millions of deaths the Thrnoxians had caused.
It told of the countless worlds they had totally obliterated in their blind conquest of space.
IT told me why I am a Pet and why my mom has all the rights and authority and access to me that entails.
IT told me the whole story.
IT told me exactly who I was, what I was, and all the near catastrophes along the way to who I became yesterday when I destroyed the Thrnoxians home system.
I am devastated to learn how many billions I had destroyed.
Men, women, and children.
Animals too, entire biospheres obliterated.
It had ended the Galactic conflict.
A little girl discovered what happens if she gets angry.
I was in tears.
It brought little comfort that there was no war any more.
I am very distraught. I am crying.
Me, “Ok … wait please.
Why do I not remember this that way?
Also, Why is it that certain … data … is refused me? Don’t I … need to know sometimes?”
It, “I’m sorry, Miss Anton. It isn’t that you are being denied anything. It is who you happen to be.”
Me, “What does that mean?”
It, “Miss Anton, you are the only human in the known universe who can wave her hand and clench her fist … and destroy an entire star system. Has it ever … have you ever thought of what type of personality this individual must have?”
I am stunned.
Realization of what I had actually done in anger with the Thrnoxians.
I feel even more horrible suddenly. Even more ill. I am crying harder.
It says in a very sorrowful tone, “Miss Anton, you must be a child.
I must insure you are sweet and innocent.
Because you are an Imperial Royal Pet, I have allowed you to be thus and have the adult quality that Larry is attracted to.
You have been given freedom.
Not even Lisa enjoys quite the freedoms you do.
You are still the most unique Pet in all the universe.
There are rules to the game.
You have played the game masterfully.
You are this way so that you do not use this power in anger or tainted with … other prejudices.
You are purged.
The data is available to you at any time … Should the need arise for you to have it.
You will be given it. When the need has passed, You will be purged.
I know this is a bad thing for you in your mind.
Think on this: Will it taint you to know what you know now? You tell me Miss Anton.”
I know it has changed me to know what I know now. I am grief stricken.
I know I would have a hard time repeating what I did if I had the knowledge I have now.
I remember what I did when Melissa had first come into the nursery so long ago.
Right after the purging the last time.
That was the halo.
That was what that was.
I had no idea what it was because I didn’t need to know then what it was. Stupid logic.
Me, “I guess its true then. I have access to the knowledge at all times.”
It, “This is true.”
Me, “But, it’s sorta on a …. strange need to know basis.”
It, “This is also true.”
Me, “And when the need to know ends … I don’t know anymore?”
It, “Correct, Miss Anton.”
Me, “And how long before the next purging?”
There was a click in my mind as the halo mom had just put on my head engaged.
I squeaked softly as my body stiffened.
I feel trillions and trillions of new concepts and neuro pathways down load.
I feel a deep probe all the way to my very essence. It almost hurts. I feel a filtering process.
I know things are going away. I do not remember what they are the removal is so complete.
I even have the knowledge they have been removed taken.
Wave after wave of down load. What realization is within me during this type of operation realizes how much of a download I am getting.
It takes a very long time to complete.
