But I didn’t want to deter. I didn’t want to see the mere threat of CP producing positive results. I wanted those girls to give me a reason to slipper them. And that is why my conclusion was that I used the slipper far more often than would have been necessary, even if it had been necessary at all.
If you sense a degree of ambivalence in what I wrote above, you are right to. I don’t believe that what I did during those years was anything to be proud of, but if I had my time over again, I would do it all again. I simply wouldn’t have the willpower to resist it.