This in itself was very destructive (as I realise now) as this allowed my fear to feed on itself. This tactic of mine did work but at an enormous cost to my emotional well being and learning. I am very aware now as a result of psychotherapy, just how much mental damage this inflicted. The whole system was a crazy cycle of abuse, terror, power-craziness madness and destruction.
The knowing that if you simply forgot some trivial little item, such as a book or whatever, this automatically qualified for the cane.
The most terrible aspect of the abuse I had to endure was witnessing others caned in front of the class or outside in the corridor.