One side of him still had trouble accepting the fact that Mrs Wilkins’ used spankings to discipline her seventeen-year old son. Yet he also at a deep, almost instinctive level how effective such discipline was for a teenager. To allow a loving maternal figure to take complete control and put you over her knee for a sound spanking on your bare bottom brought out a private side of Billy’s psyche which he kept hidden even from himself most of the time. It was a side which longed to avoid the terrible new stresses and responsibilities of adolescence, which retreated in private moments, usually just before falling asleep, into dreams of earlier times.